shh don’t tell anyone

but I think I might be turning into a geek, who would have know there was a geek inside PHG just waiting to come out! Geek is not a word I would use when describing myself but a few people recently have said that I have some geek cred.
One of my friends said i got a 4/10 on what I know and a bonus 2 as I look like a geek LOL.
These are some of the things I can do, not sure if they add to my geek cred at all

– I run an online ecommerce business
– I can write some very basic and probably shockingly unproper HTML
– I am trying Ubuntu
– I went to watch my first zombie movie and loved it, granted it was a funny zombie movie and i would not cope with a really truly scary one but still
– The really geeky bits like being good at maths and science we will just gloss over
– I have glasses, i think that gives instant geek points
– As much as i thrive on people and need people around me I am quite shy at time
– I now have 3 blogs
– Love star trek and star wars and The big Bang theory is now my all time favourite show
– I met and fell in love with Yme via Twitter – that has to score me big point
– I love gadgets, hate reading the manual and that must be user friendly but I love them
– I want a pacman book case
– I love science fiction and fantasy, okay fantasy more but still
– I love computer game that do not need hectic co-ords, I just have very very little time to play them, but if i did I could be playing a lot
– I was wikipediaing ( hahaha amazing how it can be a verb and noun) the word geek and there was a whole bit on the geek chick and fashions that draw on others like emo, goth,punk, hippie, bohemian. While i know my look is not quite any of those there is a big hippie bit of me and i think my pink docs score a lot of points, and of course I guess the pink hair is somewhat punk/hippie or something.

Any way the problem is that I am not geek enough, I want to be able to fix the problems that happen on my computer, but in my slight geek status at least I use Twitter and the real geeks there to help me.

These last few months of having computer problems and signal issues have really tried my patience to the max, we live in an area that can not get ADSL, we have trees all around so no wireless and the cell phone 3g signal is bad and expensive. None of this conducive to running an on line business. ANd my new sony computer as much as i love it in all it’s pinkness has this silly Vaio stuff on it which makes it run incredibly slowly.

I do not ask much from a computer, I want it to be fast, i want to run chrome, i like having LOTS of window and tabs open at the same time and want it to be fast regardless. I want it to be easy to use and just work, but this seems a lot to ask. I am constantly frustrated. Ubuntu is faster than using windows with the Vaio crap BUT you have to keep finding and loading all sorts of stuff that just plugs in and loads on windows.

*sigh* off to fight with my computer again! And hope that @andrevr on twitter can help me with the vodaphone dongal and Ubuntu issue

I won!!

This is take-2 on today’s blog, the other is left in my drafts and I am sure it is where it should stay. Just far too much emo-ness going on in it and I am guess there are very few people that really want to read any more emo here, so lets stick to all the rad things that happened today.

1) my boobs went for their 6 week check up and have been given the all clear to run. I bought them a new running bra called the Shock Absorber Hahaha not that they move anywhere anyway! Running here we come
2) I won R1000 Woolies voucher from Women24 for re-tweeting their competition! I have never won anything in my life so this is really cool.
3) Had 2 good business meetings today – exciting things happening all round. I just wish I knew more about websites and SEO than I do. I should have studied computers not nursing.
4) I bought some nice pink shoes but am considering not going to what I was going to wear them to.

Seeking the positive and I know these are all good things so lets just focus on them.

Doing it on my own

So I have always thought of myself as a fairly independent free thinking woman who can do most things. Well it has only taken leaving an 8 year marriage to see that perhaps I was a little too dependent. Since leaving there are things I have had to or still need to do on my own. Some things are really simple, some I will just learn and some I will just out source – I am never going to mow lawn or wash my own car!

These steps to independence are rather daunting though but the scariest thing is how much control of my life I was willing to give to someone else. To be honest as I face these things the usual feeling is panic, but the euphoria once it is done and I can tick it off the list and say ‘actually that was really not so bad’ is great.

So to date the stuff I have had to do alone includes:

– getting my own internet banking and learning to do EFT’s myself instead of saying please pay so-and-so.

– driving around town centre to find customs and excise office to sign for our shipping arriving from the UK.

-fix the computer when some random virus notice appeared.

Okay the done list is not long – the To Do one is way longer but if I am totally honest I am putting a lot of them off, baby steps.

– find a decent second hand car (I am clueless about cars so think this may be one to be outsourced)

-put my desktop together, like physically plug the whole thing together – no stop laughing, I have never done this before, I have been assured that there is only one hole for everything and that it is simple, but I have given up believing computer geeks about what is actually simple and what is not. But I am willing to give it one bash and then it will be outsourced but on a ‘teach me so I can do it next time’ basis

– teach my son to pee standing up

-fix stuff, everything was left for ‘daddy’ to fix, but with staying on the same property as my parents, my daughter just rolls her eyes if I say I can’t fix it and she says ‘Bumpa will fix it’ ( she could not say Gr as a young child so Grandpa became Bumpa)

-knowing what to do with the computer when it breaks, how to back up stuff, what programs are on it and what I need to keep it all functioning.

– For all DIY I have Dad or there are actually quite a few things I can do myself. When the shipping arrives there is a lot of flat packed book cases and stuff – I guess the Allen key and I are going to be friends.

– driving, yes I know I can drive but if we were all together He always drove. Besides being totally directionally challenged this is one I can do, I just don’t like it all that much. On second thought though being driven is not worth the atmosphere that was in car most of the time, the bickering, the anger, the staring out the window with folded arms feeling like there was no escape.

-putting music on my ipod, I have been assured this is easy.

– figuring my running watch and foot pod thing out so it records my training and then transfers the info onto the computer.

I could go on and on but my point is, like the pink hair reminds me to be true to myself, doing each little thing I learn to do on my own restores my sense of self and my ability to cope on my own.